Been trying to work-out why I have felt uninspired, frustrated and blurgh and I think I've worked it out.
When I initially started the 30day ED I was doing it purely for health reasons, to feel less sluggish, have more energy and to gain some control over my eating. The fact I lost a few pounds (9.5 so far) was just a pleasant by-product. I felt satisfied with the amounts I was eating, even when I was unable to have lunch a few times so ended up having a banana and some nuts. I had to remind myself to snack every couple of hrs and was really enjoying the food.
Since starting the 30day summer challenge the whole focus has shifted onto weight-loss and body shape and so my focus has once again become driven by those bloody scales and measurements. When I did my measurements on Monday I mentioned that I felt demotivated by it especially as on Sunday I felt great, clothes felt looser etc then on Monday I realised how awful I must still look and the negativity came in like a steam-train and hasn't really left. The confusion re some of the eating has pissed me off too as I'm now feeling like i may have wasted my time not doing a proper detox! I am feeling constantly hungry and although my exercise has definitely shifted up a gear I'm pretty convinced that my hunger is much more emotionally linked than exercise!
Sorry to be such a downer but I felt I had to share. I think I need to relax and enjoy the nxt few days as I have some fab things planned stick to ED and then have a good talking to myself on Sunday!
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